Posts tagged ‘confession’

April 8, 2010

Confession Time

Well I have a confession to make, mostly to myself.

I started this blog in January to share my journey to healthy living.  Since then, I have been running approximately 3x per week, and trying to make healthy substitutions and reduce my portion sizes when I eat.  So what’s my confession you ask?

I have not lost any weight since I started.

Well, that’s not 100% true.  I was down about 6 pounds before I went on vacation in March, but that weight has almost all come back.

Now I know that weight loss is never instant, and you have to work on fitness and healthy eating to see weight loss.  But it’s still very discouraging to never see the numbers on the scale budge.  I know my body has changed since I started running, I can see it in my calves and thighs, and my hubby says I’m getting a “yoga bum.”

I think this is one of the reasons I have been having some writer’s block since we got back from vacation.  I haven’t wanted to update my race training, or my weight loss, because neither thing has improved.  I am still huffing and puffing just as much as when I started this training, and it’s making me worry that I won’t be ready to run a 1/2 marathon at the end of May.

Another confession: I am disappointed in myself that I haven’t made better progress.  I know that I should be proud of what I have accomplished, but the type-A personality in my head is drowning me in guilt for not going for a run tonight, or for eating some Easter chocolate.

Obviously these are some issues that I need to work through, and I do have a wonderful support network that is always there for me, but I wanted to know:

How have you beat the bully in your head?  What do you do to get yourself out of a “funk’? If you’ve written about it on a blog, post a link and I will do a follow-up later in the week with links!

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